Monday, September 28, 2009

Sad Faces and Smiley Masks

Whoops.. Lazy Me, been a month since i last updated.
Been burning my time with activities to stop my hyperactive brain from thinking too much. Games, Sports, Gatherings, Whatever. It suck's to be haunted by your memories. Especially when you try so hard to put the past behind, only to have it come right back to stab you in the heart.

Love is like Dark Chocolate.
Sweet, With a Bitter Aftertaste.

This post tells a bit of the random thoughts running in my head.
But before I pour out all the lousy stuff.

Here are some highlights of the events that have occurred since the last post.
I'll skip the weekdays cos there's nothing really interesting happening then.

1. 5-7th Sept:
Monash Convocation, We've all waited a long year for this event. But the reason why it makes me happy is that I got to see my Dear Family and Friends who had gone overseas to pursue their futures.

Hands Held High

With Who?: Family & Friends

2. 12th Sept:
Day trip to Melaka, Left at 9 in the morning and reached there at 11. Instantly go to A Famosa Fort upon our arrival. Took LOTS of photos, not with my camera though. Headed down to Jonkers later that day for some Melakan Chicken Rice Balls & Chendol. Spent some time loitering around there.

By the Riverside Waterwheel

With Who?: Ricky, Ivona, Sook Jean, Sook Wei

3. 13th Sept:
My laptop Windows failed on me awhile back. It was running in an Infinite Blue Screen of Death loop. After 6 years of service, I am finally able to replace it with a new desktop from Lowyat thanks to the help of a friend of mine. Sure serves as a breeze of fresh air for me. Cos really, Its been awhile since I bought something new. Went for some Badminton later in the evening. Good ol' exercise. Can never get enough.

Don't have a picture of it, But this is the Casing

With Who?: Min Yean

3. 19th Sept:
Was supposed to go to Broga Hill for a climb today. Unfortunately I didn't sleep too well the night before so I wasn't able to get up at 5.45 in the morning. And I'm not exactly a morning person, especially when I don' get enough sleep. A friend of mine was kind enough to call me for lunch later that day though, even though i give aeroplane for the hill =__= hou paiseh. Thanks, I appreciate the company.

Disclaimer: This photo is property of Pixel Amour Photography

With Who?: Kok Mun

4. 25th Sept:
Arthur's Day was today. Originally planned to attend at Republic with some friends of mine. Apparently they were giving out free pairs of tickets for the Black Eyed Pea's Concert at Sunway Lagoon.

Here is Begins. . .

It was also the night of the Monash Ball 2009. Last years ball was an event that holds some very Dear Memories to me. There are some things that come to you when you least expect it.

She cheered me up when I was down.
Lifted my spirits when she was around.
My Friend, My Companion,
Someone I could really open up to.
Little did I expect our ties would falter.

Thank you For the Memories.
I know it won't be the same,
But I hope we won't be strangers.
Because that would just be childish.

"So give me reason. To be prove me wrong, To wash this memory clean."

RT#1. Why?

I couldn't really understand why it turned out this way. I guess theres just some questions you will never find the answers to until you discover your True Self. I failed to do so in the past.
I overlooked my flaws and never bothered to make self-improvements. To realize this, I had to fall down, really heard. A fall that snapped me to reality. There are some characteristics about a person that cannot simply be changed. But there are others which can. And by changing, Improving these characteristics, we evolve to cope better with society.

Believe me, I hate change. But this is one I'm willing to make.

RT#2. About Love and Awareness

"Love. True Love. Does it really exist?
Or is it all just Infatuation?"

I'd certainly like to believe so. I don't agree that infatuation is the limit to the human bond.
Here's what i figured:
1. Infatuation, is when you overlook a persons flaws and see them as the perfect person.
2. Love, is when both parties realize their flaws, But cant completely understand each other yet.
3. True Love, is when both parties realize, understand and accept each other for their flaws.

Where did I fall? Category 1 or 2? I don't know really.

All I can say is my "Seng Mok" (Awareness) was farking bad. So bad, I couldn't even tell if a person was angry or happy. I believe somewhere along the line it was even hinted to me, But being a "Seng Mok" virgin, I didn't realize it until I reflected on the hint about 3-4 months later =__=. In my shoes, Lets Just imagine its the as getting screwed by the guy in the photo below, Just because you were trying to be friendly when he was having a bad day.

He's Happy. Right?

But back on track. I cannot begin to stress how important awareness is. . I learned it the hard way. The ability to read people. This is one of my major flaws, I could not read peoples facial expressions. There are things we cant understand from just words coming out of a persons mouth. Facial Expressions are the bigger picture, So don't ignore them.

Dammit. . Why didn't I take Psychology as an Elective. .

Thats all for now, Time to grab some Grub




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