Nara~

System.exit()

2009-11-14T15:00:00.000-08:00

"Its okay."

To him, Things were going downhill.
They had not spent much time together lately,
So He had offered to walk her back to her car.

And that was Her response. .

As much as he hated to believe it,
Intuition told him something was not right.

The coldness in Her tone suggested she was reluctant to spend time with Him.

He couldn't help but feel avoided as his mind was flooded with lousy feelings.
He had tried a few times to get across to Her and find out what was wrong.
Despite his efforts, All he got was a vague smile and insistence that "Its Nothing".

Is it really?. .

His mind was a Battlefield. Bombarded with Questions.

Questions only She would have the Answers to.

He did not want to make any assumptions. He wanted the truth.
He needed to know what was bothering her.

He was afraid of losing her. He wanted to set things right.

BUT HE DID NOT KNOW WHERE HE HAD GONE WRONG

He could only Assume:

She felt pressured to return his Love.
But, She could not return the Love he needed.
And thats where He had failed to understand.

Could his insecurity have ignited a Fear in her?

A Fear that would tell her, All good things come to an end.

A Fear, that He would leave Her for not returning his Love.

A Fear, that would soon corner Her into the decision to System.exit().

He stood there with eyes sunken into their sockets.
Powerless. As she walked away into the distance.
Without even turning to bid a second farewell like She used to. .
Without a hint that She still cared.

He was Hurting. Because Once upon a time, He was important to her.

He was Lost. He wanted to save them, but He couldn't do it alone.

He could not solve the Puzzle, As She held some of the pieces.

About 6324095662 dead brain cells later. .

His mind rummaged through the fragments of their Memories.

The Photographs of their Good times.

Even though She never said it directly.

He heard it then, through the Pet names and Things she had done for Him:

"Honeypot". . .

"Angie". . .

The Hand made cards for Christmas, His Birthday and Valentines.

The Chocolate Rose she inconvenienced herself to get for Him.

The Telephone calls to Wish him Goodnight and Sweet Dreams.

He Heard Her say it. . "I LOVE YOU"

But He was too late to hear it.

And so in Silence, He cried for Her.

He would have wanted her to know, She wasn't the only one in pain.

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I know this isn't a very well structured post.

In fact it probably sounds like mindless babble.

But I'm sure theres others who can relate to this experience.

When we are cornered. The choices we make tend to be influenced by our emotions.

Fear is one which causes us to make rash decisions / Perform stupid actions.

This is the Story of a complicated Boy.

He had finally found a Girl whom he felt could understand him.

But he Lost Her. Fear of abandonment inevitably led to his abandonment. The Irony.

The Moral of this Story?

Your beloved can't always be there for you.

Sometimes you have to learn to let go.

But at the same time, Don't neglect your Loved one.

Its takes a balance.

And of course. .
Be Thankful whenever they've put an effort to do something for you.

Happy DeepRaya!

2009-10-19T01:04:00.000-07:00

Just a simple note to say:

Happy Belated DeepRaya!

to everyone who celebrates the occasion.

PS:
Actually wanted to post this 2 days ago but my Internets been downed. Its back now but ridiculously slow.. -____- Either ways I hope you've all had a Great time with your Festivities.

Oh Yeah, I believe it was someones birthday too. Not sure if the fella wants to remain anonymous or not, or if i even got the date right. .

So ill just say Happy Birthday DocHoliday/BeefGoneBad/Ex-roomie.

*If I'm mistaken, Please do correct me.

Cheerios-

6 Telltale Symptoms of Panda Eye

2009-10-14T00:21:00.000-07:00

Captain Obvious Strikes Again! . .

Panda Eye: Not to be confused with a movie parody of James bonds Golden Eye;

Panda Eye(s) is an affliction most people will experience at least once in their lives. Usually occurring due to a lack of sleep for a variety of reasons such as Insomnia, Assignment overload, addiction to TV drama, Football season, Emotional Stress and eating Hello Pandas.

Citation needed

Regardless, I believe deep inside we all fight a crusade against waking up after not getting enough sleep on the night before. I need not stress that restlessness is in the top 10 list of suckiest feelings in the world. If you don't agree with me, Heres a challenge. Lie down on your bed, Close your eyes, But don't sleep. Just, lie there until the next morning. It ain't a 100% guarantee, but you probably won't be in a very jovial mood the next day.

Symptoms of Panda Eye Include:

6 - Black Eyes

Last night must've been a Good Good Night huh?

The Peas have it, Therefore it's Cool.

Take a good look in the mirror.

Is there a discoloration of skin-tone beneath or around your eyes?

Do your eyes appear to be sunken into their sockets?

Did you Club Last night although you've got obligations the next morning, therefore preventing you from getting enough sleep?

If the answer is yes to either of these questions;

Chances are high that you have Panda Eye. (Hey, that last sentence rhymed. .)

The Solution: Modify the Human Genome to allow us to endure Sleepless nights. -OR- Spam Coffee

5 - The temptation to (Physically)Maul-to-Death the first person who pisses you off on the day to come.

Friendly word of advice: Keep your Distance

From personal experience, Panda Eye sometimes comes with the added effect of grouchiness. Sufferers will find that they are getting losing their patience and getting pissed off by everyday annoyances much easier than normal. It won't be surprising if you find yourself cussing at every little thing that stands in your way. Yes, that includes the person who just jumped you out of the blue on the highway.

Don't mess with Mr. Panda. .

The Solution: Avoid Human Contact -OR- Carry around a warning sign that says keep 10m away.

4 - Failure to Comply

The human brain, After a lack of sleep

A poorly rested human brain is the equivalent of a car with no wheels. It's just that hard to get your thoughts moving. A good example would be attending a lecture, and hearing every word that comes out of the lecturers mouth. But somehow, it just doesn't register. You walk out of lecture having learned nothing. You attention span would be comparable to that of a Goldfish. Might as well have stayed at home and slept longer instead.

The Solution: Stay in bed -OR- Sleep in class

3 - Slower Reflexes

Every try driving on a highway when you're sleeping? Long Distance or simply stuck in a Jam?

If you're really tired, It's possible to fall asleep with your eyes open. (I've heard the stories) This is no joke. If a car in front of you were to suddenly brake, be prepared to fork out some cash to an angry driver to get his bumper repaired. Alternatively. . If you wanted to be an ass you could just 'Maul' your frustration out on the fella, then drive off. . Which is probably why driving law tests always recommend you pull over and get a quick power nap if you're behind on your sleep.

Pictured above is a Car-Bed. Most likely to be located in your Bedroom. Remind me again why they haven't invented a Bed-Car? It would seem like a best seller design for congested roads.

But then again. . That might make traffic jams worse.

The Solution: Invent the Bed-Car and have it mass produced by 2012. Just in time to prepare for the prophecized end of the world so we can add Bed-Cars to the list of possible disasters.

2 - Not Responding

You're having a meal out with your friends. One person seem's to be quieter than the others. This could mean either one of two things. They either have a lot on their mind, or they're behind on sleep. When you try speak to them they just aren't responsive. Typical responses may include:

-Huh?.. What?

-Oh.. Okay

-Yeah

-Nope

-*Silence*

The Solution: Leave them alone. They just don't feel like talking. Probe and you shall incur their wrath. I quote Barney from HIMYM, True Story.

1 - Just 10 More Minutes

Shit.. The alarms ringing. Just 10 more minutes. *Hits the snooze button*

Next thing you know an hours past and you're going to be in quite a rush if you have any activities you're supposed to be doing on the following day.

This is extremely dangerous if the activity involves meeting up your loved one for breakfast (Especially if you're a guy), and you've left him/her waiting there for an hour. -OR- If you had a job interview that would have netted you a 5 digit salary. If it was the latter, you'd probably want to shoot yourself.

Heres an image of a gun so you can pretend to do so.

The Solution: Try using 3 Alarm Clocks. Set them in a triangle formation around you, and Have them ring at 30 minute intervals. Credits goes to Marc for this Idea : ) If it still fails then really no hope.

Sad Faces and Smiley Masks

2009-09-28T02:46:00.001-07:00

Whoops.. Lazy Me, been a month since i last updated.

Been burning my time with activities to stop my hyperactive brain from thinking too much. Games, Sports, Gatherings, Whatever. It suck's to be haunted by your memories. Especially when you try so hard to put the past behind, only to have it come right back to stab you in the heart.

Love is like Dark Chocolate.

Sweet, With a Bitter Aftertaste.

This post tells a bit of the random thoughts running in my head.

But before I pour out all the lousy stuff.

Here are some highlights of the events that have occurred since the last post.

I'll skip the weekdays cos there's nothing really interesting happening then.

1. 5-7th Sept:

Monash Convocation, We've all waited a long year for this event. But the reason why it makes me happy is that I got to see my Dear Family and Friends who had gone overseas to pursue their futures.

Hands Held High

With Who?: Family & Friends

2. 12th Sept:

Day trip to Melaka, Left at 9 in the morning and reached there at 11. Instantly go to A Famosa Fort upon our arrival. Took LOTS of photos, not with my camera though. Headed down to Jonkers later that day for some Melakan Chicken Rice Balls & Chendol. Spent some time loitering around there.

By the Riverside Waterwheel

With Who?: Ricky, Ivona, Sook Jean, Sook Wei

3. 13th Sept:

My laptop Windows failed on me awhile back. It was running in an Infinite Blue Screen of Death loop. After 6 years of service, I am finally able to replace it with a new desktop from Lowyat thanks to the help of a friend of mine. Sure serves as a breeze of fresh air for me. Cos really, Its been awhile since I bought something new. Went for some Badminton later in the evening. Good ol' exercise. Can never get enough.

Don't have a picture of it, But this is the Casing

With Who?: Min Yean

3. 19th Sept:

Was supposed to go to Broga Hill for a climb today. Unfortunately I didn't sleep too well the night before so I wasn't able to get up at 5.45 in the morning. And I'm not exactly a morning person, especially when I don' get enough sleep. A friend of mine was kind enough to call me for lunch later that day though, even though i give aeroplane for the hill =__= hou paiseh. Thanks, I appreciate the company.

Disclaimer: This photo is property of Pixel Amour Photography

With Who?: Kok Mun

4. 25th Sept:

Arthur's Day was today. Originally planned to attend at Republic with some friends of mine. Apparently they were giving out free pairs of tickets for the Black Eyed Pea's Concert at Sunway Lagoon.

Here is Begins. . .

It was also the night of the Monash Ball 2009. Last years ball was an event that holds some very Dear Memories to me. There are some things that come to you when you least expect it.

She cheered me up when I was down.

Lifted my spirits when she was around.

My Friend, My Companion,

Someone I could really open up to.

Little did I expect our ties would falter.

Thank you For the Memories.

I know it won't be the same,

But I hope we won't be strangers.

Because that would just be childish.

"So give me reason. To be prove me wrong, To wash this memory clean."

RT#1. Why?

I couldn't really understand why it turned out this way. I guess theres just some questions you will never find the answers to until you discover your True Self. I failed to do so in the past.

I overlooked my flaws and never bothered to make self-improvements. To realize this, I had to fall down, really heard. A fall that snapped me to reality. There are some characteristics about a person that cannot simply be changed. But there are others which can. And by changing, Improving these characteristics, we evolve to cope better with society.

Believe me, I hate change. But this is one I'm willing to make.

RT#2. About Love and Awareness

"Love. True Love. Does it really exist?

Or is it all just Infatuation?"

I'd certainly like to believe so. I don't agree that infatuation is the limit to the human bond.

Here's what i figured:

1. Infatuation, is when you overlook a persons flaws and see them as the perfect person.

2. Love, is when both parties realize their flaws, But cant completely understand each other yet.

3. True Love, is when both parties realize, understand and accept each other for their flaws.

Where did I fall? Category 1 or 2? I don't know really.

All I can say is my "Seng Mok" (Awareness) was farking bad. So bad, I couldn't even tell if a person was angry or happy. I believe somewhere along the line it was even hinted to me, But being a "Seng Mok" virgin, I didn't realize it until I reflected on the hint about 3-4 months later =__=. In my shoes, Lets Just imagine its the as getting screwed by the guy in the photo below, Just because you were trying to be friendly when he was having a bad day.

He's Happy. Right?

But back on track. I cannot begin to stress how important awareness is. . I learned it the hard way. The ability to read people. This is one of my major flaws, I could not read peoples facial expressions. There are things we cant understand from just words coming out of a persons mouth. Facial Expressions are the bigger picture, So don't ignore them.

Dammit. . Why didn't I take Psychology as an Elective. .

Thats all for now, Time to grab some Grub

38.1

2009-08-29T03:43:00.000-07:00

Wed 26/08/09

Whats worse than having to wake up early in the Morning?

Having to wake up early in the morning with a splitting headache. . Ugh

This Banana knows how it feels

As if that wasn't bad enough. The headache came along with a complimentary cough.

To cut a long story short, Each cough aggravated the headache. It was not a pleasant feeling.

An appropriate sound effect to describe the scenario:

*squish squish*

With the added visual effect of:

A brain bouncing around the inner walls of the cranium in a similar fashion to the ball in the retro arcade game pong. It was pretty bad.. So i conceded to sleeping it off.

Later that day. .

Me and some buddies decided to catch a documentary about Alien refugees stranded in Johannesburg. *WARNING! SPOILER ALERT*

Overview- District 9

When you look at this picture, You see a Spaceship that could potentially make the Earth holier than Swiss cheese. But don't be fooled. . It's totally harmless. Go watch Star Trek instead if you're looking for Hardcore Spaceship action.

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Ok that sounded wrong. . but nevermind.

Genre: Sci-Fi

The story begins with a Documentary of the events over the past 20 years. From the day the Aliens landed, to present day. Humans weren't too happy with the Aliens making a mess of District 9, Johannesburg. The place was a total slum. So, they decided the Aliens had to go. Brute force would be used if necessary. The man responsible for the evictions,

The Protagonist:

Wikus Van De Merwe

Head operative of a fictional evil cooperation. (MNU)

A Pretty badass name. Perhaps.
Throughout the story he experiences significant character development, Something rare in movies these days. Starting off as a pawn of the MNU, he proceeds to do his job, Evicting Aliens in a not-so-compassionate manner.

Through some dumb luck, He comes in contact with an Alien Substace that alter's his Genetic Code. Causing him to mutate into one, and suddenly everyone wants a piece of him.

The Antagonists:

1) The MNU (Multinational United)

Alien weapons in the Story are only usable by characters who possess Alien DNA. Being the 1st human to survive after having his DNA messed up, Wikus was able to use the said weapons. The MNU was jealous because Wikus suceeded where they couldn't after 20 years of Research.
So they proceded to do the unthinkable-

There are so many ways this scene could have gone wrong..

-Ok, not really. But they wanted to cut him up and study his mutation. At this point, you'd have to wonder if the poor guy would have preferred the unthinkable to happen.

Eventually Wikus Escapes, But Then theres these guys. .

2) Nigerian Warlord(?) & Co

If im not mistaken, Its the fella at the bottom right. .

Their role? They deal with black market trades, Monopolizing sales of Fake Cat Food to the Aliens in exchange for their Arms. Note that Arms, refers to both their weapons and the appendage.

But Whats the use of a decapitated Alien arm?. .

Apparently consuming lots of it is nutritious and will grant you the ability to use Alien weapons.

At least thats what they believed. .

.
It wasn't working so they wanted a piece of Wikus too. Specifically, his arm.

By the end of the movie, the two Antagonist factions are fighting over possession of Wikus. He stands his ground and survives the ordeal, but is badly injured.

As for the Aliens, 2 of 1.8 Million manage to evacuate earth by the end of the film.

(Thats a success rate of 0.0000001%) The rest are left to be rounded up and forced to live in a concentration camp. Oh- almost forgot, They promise they'll be back in 3 years to make Wikus human again.

In Summary, A Day in the Life of Wikus. .

Escape from people trying to dissect you.
Escape from people trying to eat you.
Kill them all.
Discover it's going to be 3 years before your Alien friend can fix your messed up DNA.

. . and you thought your day was bad.

- End -

Conclusion

Meh. What an unproductive day. Stupid headache.

Oh, If you're wondering whats the significance of 38.1.

Thats just a body temp measurement when I went to the Doc.

Just another Twist-in-Logic

2009-08-24T03:33:00.000-07:00

Hey There,

Just an Introductory post.

You have been warned~

Every New Chapter in Life has Beginning.

Let this blog be a Chapter to document the crazy nonsense rumbling in my head. I admit, my thinking can be rather flawed. Through discussion, What I hope this blog would bring to me a realization of my wrongs, so I can avoid repeating my past mistakes caused by my stubborness. One day I might even look back at it and get a good laugh at what i've written.

I'm quite an impulsive person. I tend to do things when I 'Feel like it'.

So, I feel like starting a blog, Hopefully the novelty of it's entertainment value won't wear off too quickly.

You may find my posts wierd as my thoughts often revolve around what I like to describe as twisted logic. (Thus the title twist-in-logic™) I know a number of people who simply disagree with me because I just think on a different, Imaginary plane. Often makes me see things in a way that is not socially acceptable.

Either ways, I encourage any readers to keep an open mind. If you disagree with me, You have every right to voice out, Discuss and Justify your point of view.

In Summary

PS: I Hope people will be able to appreciate my writings here. Because I'm not so much of a writer, so this kinda goes out of my way. My posts will be intent on discussing my views of the world, expressed in a nonsensical, totally random fashion.

Thank you for reading.

-End of Intro-

Wierd.. I just felt Deja Vu

6 Annoyances About Commuting

2009-08-23T04:54:00.000-07:00

It's another lovely day, where you get to go to work. Excited?

No? Yeah, figured.

If you're one of the lucky few with a workplace just opposite your house, Kudo's to you.

Some people are lucky enough to have a car. Others are misfortunate as they are helplessly cornered into using the ~~Pubic~~ Public Transportation System.

And if the Public transportation system is nowhere near reliable,

Say goodbye to your time wasted waiting.. waiting.. and waiting.. zZ

Lets face it, Commuting sucks.

It doesn't matter what mode of transport you use.

6. Anti-Meter Taxis

And so the day starts off. There aren't any Bustops or Train Stations near your place. Whats the next best option? Flag a taxi, To get to the public transport.

Picture not related

Heres the part where you Roll an Imaginary 5 sided Dice. (Numbers run 1-5)

Rolled a 5? Thats great! You've found a Taxi that charges you by the meter. Honest Taxi Drivers like these deserve a tip.

4? Hey, This Taxi uses a meter too! Aren't you feeling lucky? Sit back, take a nap, enjoy the ride. Eventually you reach your destination. Either one of two things just happened.

Lets just say there is usually more than one route to your workplace. You just went the long way.
The meter is just a toy. You're still getting charged a flat rate thats 150% of the actual price for the distance you just travelled. This is by the way, the same as rolling any number between 1-3.

Dammit, Biased Die

Wait, Why?

Apparently, Some taxi drivers wages are barely enough for them to sustain a living. The extra charge also pays off for money they've lost while stuck in 'traffic jams'* during the journey. Guess we could think of it as charity. Every extra buck they make easens their daily burden.

* *Cough* Bullshit *Cough*

5. Sardines (People Jams)

Finally, The Train station. Before you step on, here's a chance to breathe and cooldown from any rage you may have after being ripped off by the taxi.
Or not..

"You and I, We're not so Different. ."

Comfort is not in the dictionary of the Public transportation system. Keep in mind this doesn't just happen on trains, but on busses too. Too often you'd be stuck standing all the way, smelling the armpit of someone with really bad BO.

That isn't the worst part. People often force their way in, Because they don't want to be screwed by their bosses for turning up late at the office. While forcing their way in, Train operators often encourage passengers move to the center of the train to allow others to board.

This creates a new problem. Now you have to force your way out, with the added risk that you won't make it anyway since its rush hour, and people will be pushing their way in.

Can't really blame the train operators, They do make an effort. Very often announcements are made to boarding passengers, encouraging them to make way for alofting passengers before barging their way in.

Unfortunately, This is to no avail as these operators do NOT have the same level of influence as Denzel Washington in Pelham 123.

"Please allow passengers to alight before boarding."

Wait, Why?

People would rather squeeze than wait a few minutes for another train. Because it probably won't make much difference if they do.

4. Transports Not Arriving/Leaving on Schedule

You wake up not-so-restless, Get dressed, and Rolled a 5 with the taxi.

Feeling lucky? For once things are going your way.

. . Then Murphys (pessimistic) Law kicks in. You reach the bus stop, but the bus is nowhere to be seen. Then you wait, for what seems like forever.

That's right, Snooze.

Just make sure you wake up when the bus arrives.

Sooner or later, the public transport arrives. Still feeling lucky? Good, you're on the way to work. There may however be the alternative of the Bus Driver taking a tea break. This of course means you have to wait even longer. But you can't blame him/her, Everyone needs a rest. Something to ponder about,

"The world would be a better place if busses were automated."

Wait, Why?

Two possible reasons:

It rained, so a traffic jam
It didn't rain, but theres a traffic jam
The bus driver won't drive until the traffic jam vanishes
They're waiting for more passengers so they can pack em like sardines

Not sure if the next point is better or worse. .

3. Public Transport Services, Jumping You

This doesn't happen everywhere. (Or does it?) If a bus is packed like a can of sardines, theres no room for anyone else. So the bus ignores its designated stop and continues on with its jouney. Ok, Thats justified. But sometimes. .

Wait. . Isn't that a disabled person sign?

The public transport just jumps you for seemingly no reason. A totally empty bus, or train. I've personally seen it happen, and I'm pretty sure there was no label to indicating that particular carriage is exclusively for the disabled.

Wait, Why?

Just a wild guess, There's more than one stop every bus/train has to make.

Lets call them stops A, B, .., G. Now lets imagine,

- Pick up 50 People at stop A

- Drop 4 People at stop B, Pick up another 15

- Reach stop C, and theres no space because no one gets off.

Stop C never gets a chance unless an empty bus/train jumps stops A/B to get there. Comprende?

Another scenario. No Taxi's? No Bus? You're forced to. .

2. Take a Walk

It took only 5 minutes with public transport. Shouldn't take much longer on foot right?

~~LEFT!~~ WRONG!

Actually. . It might not be so bad to own one of these:

A Honda Walking Assist

Not to get all Mathematical, but here's the facts:

Travel 5 minutes in a Bus going at 60 km/h. You just travelled 5 km.

The average human walks at 5 km/h. (Citation needed)

You probably figured out by now how long the walk would take.

On the flip side, walking is healthy since you burn calories.

But on some days, It just wont do.

Fortunately, The kid has a bicycle

Wait, Why?

Impatience kicked in. If only you'd waited a little longer,

Because the bus WILL overtake you.

1. The Traffic Jam

All that work has finally paid off. Congratulations, you have enough to purchase a car. No more sardining, taxi charity, walking in the rain, and time wasted waiting for public transports. Hooray!

Sadly, theres still the Universal Problem known as the Traffic Jam,

The Vehicle version of Sardines.

Don't you just love those shift-the-car-out-of-the-carpark puzzles?

Here's the live action version

The traffic jam is probably the root cause of many delay's during your daily commute. Best way to avoid it? Wake up really early. But hey. . Lets be realistic, How long can you keep it up before the fatigue takes it's toll on your body? If your answer is forever, you have my respect.

Wait, Why?

Just an opinion, Most commuters eventually get sick of taking public transportation. So, they buy cars and indulge in the comfort. When theres too many cars on the roads, The roads become the equivalent of a Bus/Trains. The cars on become the equivalent of the people cramped into that Bus/Train.

On the Brightside, At least in a car it's not so claustrophobic.